I honestly didn’t know what moving forward meant until about 3 months ago. I would try to hold onto everyone and every little memory, even if it was bad or negative. But some times people come in stages of your life and when you outgrow those stages its best to leave it behind even if that means leaving some old acquaintances there as well.
I started 9 grade at a brand new high school. I left that high school holding so much anger inside and for the people as well but in a way it was holding me back and now I have no reason to because I know that that’s not the person that I would like to be and that I don’t need something not as meaningful held in my heart. When I was able to let go of everything that was when I was able to find myself and real except myself. That was when I loved myself and my flaws.
Later after legging go I soon felt that maybe it was a mistake because there wasn’t many people around me, maybe it was because the friends that are close and lifelong are limited. Maybe it was the fact that I was reaching out to anyone new. Little did I know that it would change my 11 grade year when I finally let go of someone I thought was close but actually toxic and I gained an entire team of people who are incredibly amazing inspiring funny well grounded people. Whom I was honored to get the time to know everyone and spend everyday with such incredible souls. They who have thought me so much and where I found the depth of my strength.
Its times like this where I realize that moving on and legging go can be pretty scary at times, but when you look back on it… It just seems like another step in my path on becoming a humble human being instead of a random leap in the dark.